18.11.07

good morning Zen. thank you for the wake up call it was 0500hrs. i decided to rise a little 30minutes early. shower and ready for work. grandma still asleep no kuih routine today. it's Sunday.

a very quiet morning on the street. the bus arrived on time.

workplace was buzzing in the morning. Samm informed me it was heavy check out in the morning. i missed the show.

smooth morning operation. suddenly i yearn for Coffee, does not matter it is black or white. Pia offered to take a instant Nescafe from her locker just for me. thank you darling! as GOD heard my little request Reena came to the office and offered me a packet of instant Coffee. great. thank you Reena as though you understood me. i will have Pia offer first. Reena placed a Choco Biscuits on the operator desk for all to eat. thank you Reena.

consider it breakfast. smiled.

at work it seems time is gliding fast. with one case 'boyfriend hiding her clothes' and with one complaint about the room. everything else was fine. i managed.

while waiting for the handing and taking over duty. i helped myself to Lay Yian Japanese snack, Atori. a delicious Rice Crackers with seaweed and Anchovies.

thank you Lay Yian will repay you next time. and Frosie thank you for helping to finish the Atori. laughed.

time to go home. it was a high tide along the river.


i really wanted to take the river taxi ride someday. will bring my brother Elias along.

suddenly the sky turned cloudy. i going to rain soon i bet.

i was right. in the bus ride 143 the rain start pouring slow and steady. as i about to reached home the rain got heavier.



i was wet from the strong wind that is blowing. my petite umbrella almost broken. smiled. lets play and dance in the rain since i'm half wet the waist down.

i survived but not the 2 trees near to my house. it was up rooted, mother nature have it's way. thank GOD for your protection.

the staircase leading to my house looks like a beautiful waterfall. water gushing from step to step. it took me a moment as i observe.


what a nice weather for a Hot Soup. i'm hungry. grinned.

i arrived to a very wet corridor. let's freshen up and have lunch. no it was dinner i guessed.

grandma just return from a wedding reception not long before me. thank GOD she was home before the rain come by. grandma cooked Sup Petola Suun Lada Hitam. my favourite of late mum recipe. i missed my late mother, suddenly.

on top i had Ikan Serping Goreng. a lovely match for the hot rice and soup.

i took a little nap. only to be disturbed by some missed call. you want to talk you got to call. i will not return call, unreasonable.

i spend time watching TV. joined by Uncle Roslan. a good movie but i can't recall the name of the movie. sorry.

time to sleep almost 2230hrs. i was building odd imagination then i remembered something.

decided to call Zerr. the call ended short and simple. soon i received a SMS from Zerr and from that time onward it was a roller coaster in my feelings, emotions and thoughts. i would not say sorry for all the nasty things i type in my SMS reply. no regrets. i simply hate you for now. that's it.

it is not about taking revenge or throwing tantrum or temper with no valid reason. i simply would not take it anymore. i must let go. i am so angry inside. i'm fuelling. and i must let it out.

after all i must let it out to you and only you Zerr, personally. don't make me feel miserable. i am content that i had pour my 'heartfelt' to you. i really felt better. you decide if you worth a third chance?

time to sleep. good night, it's 2minutes to midnight.

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